Saturday, 11 October 2014
Change... Is it good or bad?
"Its funny how day by day, nothing changes. But when you look back, everything is different"- CS Lewis
It's a simple fact of life: Change will happen whether we want it to or not.
Over the course of this year so much has changed in terms of my friendships. I thought I was going to be good friends with this girl for a long time but this year something changed and now she no longer talks to me. At first, I refused to believe that this was the case. I was certain that by the beginning of term 2 things would go back to the way they were last year. They did go back to the way they were occasionally, but for no longer than a week. Then things got really bad recently, stuff happened (sorry about being vague but its really personal) that confirmed that we may never be friends again. Some days I accept this fact, other nights I cry myself to sleep wondering what I did wrong. Its now October and even those this happened in February I am still not completely over it and may still not be for some time.
However, this quote sums up exactly what happened. Yes, I lost a good friend and I'm still struggling to accept this fact but during this time I have formed new friendships and strengthened old ones with other friends. I'm learning who are my real friends and who I can trust. I still haven't completely figured this out but I know that next year things might completely change again, but this time I'll be prepared.
i don't normally write such personal things on this blog but I felt like I had to write this down because I have had a hard time explaining this to people in real life.
On a happier note I would like to thank all my friends who have put up with all of my complaining and listened when I have been upset. I don't know how I would've coped without you. :)